Life. Love. Loss. 


One minute I was pregnant and then in another I wasn’t. On June 8th 2017 I miscarried at 9 weeks. My husband and I were not planning on our 4th child so soon after our last, however after about a month of getting use to the idea, we began to do so. We were planning when we were going to tell our families and announce to our friends. We were planning how we we were going to adjust our home and even our finances. 

Two days prior to my miscarriage I had an annoying feeling in my stomach. Both my husband and I woke up around 2 am on Wednesday morning in the bathroom feeling sick. Initially we thought it was from pizza we had ordered the previous night, however the kids were not sick. That same day I started spotting which I had never did when pregnant with any of my other children, yet I knew it wasn’t uncommon. 

Thursday morning I felt the same and was still spotting when I woke up and yet went into work. Around 12:40 I needed to go to the bathroom and that’s when it everything began. I passed what look like a large blood clot and what looked like a mucus plug afterward. Immediately fear started setting in and I knew something was very wrong. 

I quickly grabbed my stuff and went to my car and as calmly as I could called my doctor’s office in which they had me come right away. It literally took me 10 min. to arrive getting their at 1pm. I didn’t want to call my husband until I knew if my fears were confirmed or not, yet at the same time I needed him to know and I needed him to pray. I sent him a text because I didn’t want to cry, but he immediately called me and we talked as I waited to be seen. 
As soon as I was called I was asked to pee in a cup for testing. It was then that I passed which looked like another large blood clot and that is when I really knew that was it. That was my baby. The doctor told me the test came back that I was pregnant, however with all that had happen it didn’t sound like it was a healthy pregnancy.  After that, I had to get a sonogram to find out for sure. 

As I lay there on the table, I prayed that somehow after everything, miraculously my baby was still there. After several minutes of clicking and hearing no heartbeat, I was told that the baby was no longer there and that I most likely passed out everything that needed to come out when I went to the bathroom. I still tried to remain calm even after the doctor told me that there is always a 20% chance of miscarrying, yet I had been fortunate to have three children up to that point. 

Before leaving I had to have my blood work done and return after a week to make sure my hormone levels and everything went back to normal. As soon as I got to the car I let it all out and cried. Blaming myself of course and feeling like I was responsible for this happining. I called my husband in the midst and told him we had lost the baby, which was the hardest thing I had to do in life. 

I can say that I never thought this would happen to me and honestly this still feels surreal. I never got to hear my baby’s heartbeat nor did I see him/her moving around on a screen. Somehow I think the loss is easier to deal with just because of that. Today, June 19th would have been our first sonogram scheduled for 2:30pm and I am reflecting on what could have been. 
I chose to write this because I have always found comfort in writing. I chose to share this because you never know who may find their own comfort in knowing they are not alone.  I will never forget “Baby Fountain #4” and I will always be greatful that God chose me to be a carrier of one of his most precious gifts. 

One thing that I know to be true is that God is still a good God and we know He will grant us the desires of our heart.  The other thing I know to also be true is “…that all things work together for good to them that are the called according to His purpose.” Rom. 8:28. When it’s time, we will have another child. As for now, we are all doing fine and take each day with an extra little bit of love and an extra little bit of care.



The picture above was taken 1week prior to our miscarriage. 

My Top Stylish Places to Shop on a Budget


When it comes to shopping there are s few places that I like to check out for deals. The first is H&M. I love H&M mainly for its wear to work pieces. I find that the colors are not too loud and tend to cater to several work appropriate looks! I also love how there are several contemporary looking styles and they have just enough flare for the look I want to portray (especially online)!


My second favorite store is Forever21. I love how when I walk into the store there is nothing but a sea of colors and prints under bright lights! Its almost as if I have no choice, but to be happy when I walk in to the place! This is definetly a store to come to when your looking for something fun and flirty. I also know that if I can’t find my size in one style, there is a TON of alternatives to choose from!


NY & Co. is another place I enjoy shopping in everyone once in a while whether for myself or a client because of their great deals. I especially like their cute jewelry and sandals! It is also a great place to get deals on capri’s and dresses for business casual looks and majority of the time you can buy one and get one half off!


Next favorite store to shop is Burlington Coat Factory. When it comes to dresses, particularly for special occasions, this is the place to go. Funny thing is I always think about this store last when I need to find a dress and it’s after I have wasted time shopping g around at other stores. Smh. This store closely reminds of shopping at Marshalls and TJ Maxx, however I think Burlington has the better deals! 


Last, but not least, shopping at Target is a great way to get designer looks (and brand names when they are partnered) at an inexpensive price! I never knew about Target styles until one day I complimented someone on a top that I thought was BCBG and was told it came from Target for $12! SN: If your are planning a trip to the beach with family like I am, they have bathing suits on sale for a steal of a deal!

Now that you know my favorite places to shop while on a budget, what are yours?

Untitled. 

I wasn’t too sure what to title this one so it’s “untitled” lol. Furthermore, no long paragraphs to proceed. In short, I saw this outfit online at H&M when shopping for my birthday a couple of months ago and I just had to have it. The end!  😜


Top & Skirt-H&M/Wedge Sandals-Forever21/Hair-My sis in law and I/Makeup -Moi

The Nakedness of “S.T.Y.L.E”

It was such an honor to have author, speaker and teen girl advocate, Amanda Eaddy Oliver at the “A Stylish Affair Event” on April 29th! She gave such an empowering message on taking care of yourself with brilliant look on “style.” Today, she exudes confidence and enjoys teaching others how to do the same.


“How we truly look on the outside depends on what is going on inside. Our appearance (make up, no make-up, stylish, plain, clean kept, messy etc.) doesn’t depend on anyone else but ourselves.

We control STYLE.

When was the last time you were okay with your nakedness?

I mean, no make-up, no designer tags/bags, shoes, hair undone, stretch marks, dimples, pudges and more?

At one time in my life, my nakedness hurt. I couldn’t stand to see myself fully unclothed. It was a reminder of what I hadn’t accomplished. Those dreams that hadn’t been fulfilled. These were moments where I felt hopeless. 

These were times where my identity was tied to my relationships. However they viewed me was who I was. Because I couldn’t embrace my nakedness, I had no style.

Do you stare at the mirror and like what you see? That matters! Our views on ourselves control how we dress and how we function in this world. It controls how we communicate with others.

Our nakedness dictates our style.

True Style is:

S-Satisfaction

T-Tolerance

Y- You

L-Learning

E-Excellence

In order to reach these levels in style, you must first get naked, stripping yourself of everything and sitting still.

Satisfaction says “ I am not trying to be like anyone else but who God says I should be.” Stop the searching, trying to find yourself in others. Your identity doesn’t exist in them but in Him.

Tolerance says “ I can deal with me, flaws and all. God created a masterpiece when he created me. I am necessary.” Who you are is great. You are not a mistake. Be okay with your presence alone.
Check back tomorrow to learn part 2 of “The Nakedness of S.T.Y.L.E.” 😉

Trivia Answers

It’s time to check your answers and see how well you did! Answers are bold font below.
1. Who is June Ambose
a) Celebrity stylist/designer
b) Celebrity stylist only
c) Designer only
d) None of the above

2. What is a “bootie” shoe?

A cross between a shoe and a boot that does not go past the ankle

3. What is Pantone?
a) Another name for “patent leather”
b) A system for matching colors
c) The French proununciation for panty hose
d) The name of a color
4. True or False

The tassel has always been a symbol of power and prestige? True
5. What is a “kitten” heel?

a) Heel height under 1 inch only
b) Heel height under 3inches
c) None of the above
d) Heel height between 1-2 inches
6. How many pairs of jeans do Americans own on average?
a) 3
b) 5
c) 7
d) 6
7. What are 4 major fashion capitols?

a) NY, London, Africa, China
b) London, Paris, Milan, NY
c) NY, Paris, Columbia, Milan
d) London, Paris, Milan, CA
8. True or False

The 1st magazine was published in Germany? True

9. True or False

Men’s shirt buttons are predominantly on the left side and women’s on the right? False (it’s the opposite)

10. True or False

Both the pencils skirt and A-line skirt were designed by Christian Dior? True
Bonus

How much money does the fashion industry generate in revenue each year?

a) $200 billion
b) $2 billion
c) $1 billion
d) None of the above 

How many did you get right? 😉

A Stylish Affair Recap

A week ago today I had my 2nd Annual A Stylish Affair Event and it was amazing! I got to share information  about shopping with a game plan and the importance of not having a closet full of “what if’s.”  I also had a fun with my guests by having a few of them participate in a little trivia (test your skills when I post the questions later)! Last, but not least, I had a fashion show demonstrating how you can get the most out of your closet. 

This included a “3 in 1 Experience,” where I persoanally went to the homes of my two models and created 3 different looks using one key piece! I can say as long as I have been personal styling and doing closet assessments, I’m always amazed at what  looks are an obvious pairing to me, but are not for my clients. I truly enjoy showing people how to create looks using what they already own and nothing gives me more satisfaction then hearing my clients tell me that they “never would have thought to put these pieces together.”

Remember what you buy is an investment. So make sure you are invested in the right pieces! Lastly, clearing out your closet is not only a way for you to rid yourself of the unnecessary, but also a cleansing process. You never know what blessings await you when you just let go. Check out more up and coming posts of what was shared at the event throughout the week!

Trivia winners!


A few Picts of our lovely models: Wendell Dominque and Jernise Lee


A few of our guests who thought they could “bring it” had the opportunity to strut on the red carpet! 


And of course yours truly!

Giveaway time from our vendors!

An empowering message and a different take on “style” by Amanda Eaddy Oliver. 


After the event


Our lovely vendor’s included:


The Folding Frog a service that cleans and folds your laundry so you don’t have to by Lakyesha Harris. 

No More Chains which chronicles the life hardship of of several women who have overcome featuring author Amanda Eaddy Oliver who is also a teen girl advocate and founder of Brand New. 

Fit Girl Kloset that featured the trendiest and stylish of workout gear with size ranges of xs-3x by Tabitha Dowtin. 

Paparazzi Accessories (at the age of 10 years old) Journey featured children and women’s jewelry and accessories. 

Younique from Amanda Butler features natural based cosmetics and are also best known for their fiber-lash. 


Soul Purpose from Kimberly Clement that features body creams, scrubs, scented candles and more!

Thank you to everyone who attended and supported especially those who pressed their way to make it out and had to either come late or leave early. I appreciate each and every one of you! Shout out to Tiffany Robinson who just started her natural tea line (that helps several ailments of the body) and donated samples which was given to our first 15 guests! Lastly thank you Annie Rosa for filling in as my photographer last minute and Lois Jolley of Occassions Event Hall for providing us the space. God willing, see you all again next year!😘
If you would like contact information of any of the vendors listed above please drop a comment below!

2nd Annual “A Stylish Affair”

Just a week from today “A Stylish Affair” is back! This year I am so excited to be sharing tips on how to shop, utilizing your current wardrobe and more! My first event was amazing and I got to connect with a lot of great and talented people. The feedback was so positive that I had to do it again in hopes of impowering others. 

I truly enjoy shopping for my clients. In doing so I can educate on what works for their body type and bring out their best features. It’s easy to help people look good, but my goal with every client is to help them feel good too. No matter how much make up you wear or expensive clothes you put on, you must not only value yourself, but have the confidence that you are truly more than a conqueror! 

Don’t miss this year’s “A Stylish Affair” event where I look forward with the help of special guest, Amanda Eaddy Oliver to inspiring you!  Tickets are only $5 and must be purchased prior to the event at thegokabean.eventbrite.com. See you there!